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I cleared my throat, sure it was just nothing, and thought of the song she always recommended I sing. I was doing well, had gotten out the first verse, when my voice cracked and, it was suddenly gone.
Silence met my ears.
My eyes widened as I tried again. This time I got a few bars out, then my voice broke. People started screaming at me. I tried once more, but it wouldn't work. I wouldn't work.  
My legs felt life rubber and I fell to my knees. What was wrong? Why wasn't I working? I tried once more, and failed again. Tears started falling down my cheeks as kept trying to perform, all the while I thought about her. She was the reason it wasn't working. Where was she?
Shouting bombarded me, profanities and insults assaulting me like rocks, bruising my skin and mind. I looked up hopelessly, hoping to see her, but she still wasn't there. I couldn't seem to move anymore, even when they did start throwing things.
The first thing I felt was a bag of popcorn. It didn't hurt, but then they started throwing harder things. I just sat there and took it, crying and wishing for her to come back.
Eventually, I felt someone grab me and take me offstage. They dumped me backstage and I continued to cry.
"Shhh, it's alright." Someone stroked my soda soaked hair.
Hope bloomed in my heart, making it soar.
"Gu-" I looked up into a pair of blue eyes, not the green I had been expecting. My overjoyed heart now deflated and I was back to my depressed state. What I was looking was not my Ringmaster, but a tiny girl with hair of gold and feline ears hidden in the strands. She couldn't have been over the age of 15.
She was wearing a simple black dress, but there were manacles on her wrists and ankles without the chains. She seemed not to notice it was there, along with the '02' branded onto her right forearm.
"Let her be, Rina." A boy was standing behind her, identical to her in almost every way, except he was in a pair of black slacks and a black, short sleeve dress shirt. There was a metal collar around his neck along with the manacles, which led me to believe that he caused more trouble than the girl beside him. I noticed they were both bare footed, as I was.
"Don't be rude, Allen," she looked over her should at the boy, "she's scared and alone."
"Don't meddle, or there will be hell to pay."
'Wha-" I started to ask, but was hoisted up to my feet. I was whirled around and staring into the eyes of the infuriated Ringmaster.
"What was that?!" he screamed at me, his voice hidden by the applause the next act.
"I-I-I-" I stammered, terrified by the rage in his eyes. I looked over at the lions and the boy was dragging his sister away. I could see a tear fall as she turned away and let her brother lead her away. How I wanted to follow them.
"Look at me!" He grabbed my chin and forced my gaze back to him, "What. Was. That?!" he yelled again.
"I tried! I'm sorry!" I cried out. His grip on my arm was excruciating. It felt as if he were trying to grind my bonds together until they turned to dust under my skin. I could feel each of his fingertips squeezing my chin and arm and knew there would be bruises when I woke up in the morning. He seemed to notice my discomfort, but just squeezed harder.
"You're pathetic." He looked at me with disgust and threw me to the ground. The air was forced out of me with the impact and I couldn't move for a second. I could taste blood in my mouth.
"Get her out of my sight." I heard his cold voice above me and two sets of hands grabbed me and drug me back to my cage.
I cried out for help, pleading with them to let me go home, but they didn't acknowledge me. They just threw me in the cage, locked the door, and walked away. I continued to scream at them, at anyone for that matter, but that did no good. No one came to help me. Not even when the show ended.
Another chapter in my Circus Monster fanfiction. For those of you who didn't understand who 'she' is after this chapter where it is vaguely said, 'she' was the main characters former Ringmaster. She was with 'her' for a while, but then the 'circus monster' was taken away from 'her'

And I didn't want to use the actual names of the Vocaloids (Rin and Len) so I tried to use names that you could still tell who they were (along with the number thing). Circus monster is obviously Luka, and I'll figure out a name for her and I'll incorporate her number soon too!

Damn, this is really short *hangs head in shame* the next one will me longer, I promise.

Hope you like it, and I'd very much appreciate feedback, please people!
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IdrewAcow Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Poor Luka~! You really incarnated the song perfectly.
Ah, now I'm thinking that SHE is Gumi...well, I'll know soon, because I'll be following this~!!!
mcjo13 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
yay! I'm glad you like it! (yeah, it's Gumi because I saw a comment on Youtube that basically said as much and I liked the idea, so I went with it)
IdrewAcow Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ok, I also thought it might be Gumi, seeing that she also appears in the original video.
Keep up the great work~!
mcjo13 Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks! Wait, there's a video?!?!!??!
IdrewAcow Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yes, but with only three pictures; one of Luka, which is apparent 100% of the time. Then, during the little music-less part, there's gumi who 'comes out of the shadows' for a little while, tied in what seems to be barbed wire. Then when Luka sing 'those two lions', a small picture of lions resembling Len and Rin come in and fade out for a small moment. It's a really basic video, I think the only one out there.
mcjo13 Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
oh. some one should make a video for it
IdrewAcow Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Someone should, it deserves it. :D
mcjo13 Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
TheArtfulPolitician Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012  Student Writer
Fantastic! Just one small mistake. The wording in this sentence is awkward, "His grip on my arm and face were hurting from his grip."
mcjo13 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
blah! *to go fix*
glad you like it :)
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